What the shirt says

Just finished my last final. The ceremony is on Saturday. Woo motherfuckin' hoo.

The girl who makes me laugh more than anyone else

My sister is adorable

The Failboat has sailed

96th percentile on the verbal...and 21st on the math.

I don't know why I bother breathing other SMART people's air. Surely they need it.

Preparing to get onboard the Failboat

GRE tomorrow. BOOOOOOOOO. My verbal scores are out of this world but the quantitative (the math) are still putting me in the 50-65 percentile. Which isn't horrible but c'mon folks.

This made me laugh, because that's pretty much what it's like.

Also my throat still hurts. BOOOOOOURNS.

Can't wait for this to be over.

Things to think about

Up late. Feel like I'm possibly becoming ill. Pondering my life, the people in it, my choices, the good and the bad. Wondering if I'm ever going to be happy with ANYTHING. Why do I think I even have a SHOT of getting into this Berkeley program? Am I fucking nuts? What the fuck is wrong with me? Am I just PMSing like crazy?

Am I ever going to figure this shit out?

Been vegan for 10 months now. Go me.

Worker dronez

Moral: ear bugs get into your brain through your ear and make you kill people, which makes you sad



Two and a half more weeks of classes. Then finals. Then Germany. Two huge projects due two weeks from today. Bit stressed. Feel like bursting into tears and/or hurling myself out of a window.

Thoughts on Buffy season 6

John is watching Season 6 of Buffy the Vampire Slayer for the first time, and I am rewatching it for the 3rd or 4th time. It's my favorite season because I want Spike to be my manbitch for forever an' ever, and it because it's definitely the darkest.

But I was struck this time by the contrast between this season and Season 5. The Big Bad in Season 6 is...three nerds who make Battlestar Galactica jokes, drive around in a van with a Star Wars theme horn and have vague plans of world domination? Joss Whedon is making fun of his own viewers (which is hilarious).

The real enemies are the characters themselves. Xander's waffling, Anya's return to being a demon, Willow's addiction, Spike's 'bad boy who is oh so lovely in bed but makes you an emotional wreck"-ness, Dawn's kleptomania, and Buffy's depression, not to mention Giles leaving. The only one who remains relatively stable through the whole thing is Tara. She's the adult, but as with the other nuturing, mother figure in the Buffyverse, she is not a permanent figure. In the end, the nerds are a secondary issue; the Big Bad is Willow, consumed with grief and dark magic, who confronts each of them with their respective weaknesses during the last two episodes.

It's sad, and painful, and dark, but because of that, it makes the characters so much more human. It takes them down a notch or two from their superhero-ness, and really enables the viewer to relate to them, especially for those of us in our early 20s who are starting to deal with everything that the 'real world' throws at us for the first time.

Bergfest

Halfway through the term exactly. Thank goodness.

I encourage everyone to read this: Top 10 Reasons Not to Eat Pigs, and not just because the picture of the baby piggies at the top of the page is one of the most adorable things I have ever seen. If you're interested, May 19th-25th is World Vegetarian Week. I encourage anyone willing to make a change in their lives (and those of the animals) AND who care about the environment and their health, to sign up for the Pledge to be Veg for 7 Days! thing that goveg.com is going. SETA recently did a Try Vegan Week! for Earth Week on campus, and 47 people signed up. It's just 7 days out of your lifetime, and during those seven days you can live more simply, conciously, and compassionately. And you know you have a vegan friend who is willing to send you information, recipes, or answer questions. :)

I leave you with a pic of me and Meredith at our Try Vegan Week table on Earth Day:





I made those signs. :3

Happy Vegetarianniversary to meee!

That's right folks. Today is ONE YEAR without ANY MEAT! I can't believe it. I am the last person who would ever go vegan, let alone vegetarian, and yet here I am, a year later, meat-free and loving life way more than I did before (and now with the added bonus of being dairy-free, but that year-mark isn't until July).

I am:

-Healthier
-More fun
-Way more passionate about life
-An amazing cook and baker
-Actively advocating for those whose voices are silenced
-More aware of MANY more social justice issues
-The owner of a palatte not smothered in cheese and fat, hiding all the amazing flavors of just FOOD
-More creative
-More concious
-...and enjoying living simply, compassionately, and joyfully.

To celebrate I indulged in alcomahols last night for my BFF Morgie-poo's birthday, and today I dropped $50 on stuff from Food Fight Vegan Grocery, including but not limited to Teese and a cute little cookbook called Rabbit Food.

Le Sigh

It seems like the stretch between February and the end of May is always the hardest part of the year for me. It's being exacerbated now by some of the side-effects of coming off the BC pill (moodswings, cramps, bloating, headaches, freaking BREAST TENDERNESS, which I've never had before, and no before you ask I'm not pregnant).

John is in Berkeley right now checking out the law school and such (he got accepted and they're throwing fat stacks of money at him, it's a sure-thing we're moving in August). I miss him a lot. It's a portent of how hard it's going to be while we're apart during my stint in D-land (which I bought my ticket for, incidentally: arriving in D-Land June 21 and coming home July 25). But then at least I'll be busy instead of bumming around my apartment while it pisses rain outside and I ignore the huge pile of dishes in my sink.

But all is not lost. I have Death at a Funeral on DVD, and I made GRUB sweet and sour tofu, and I have chocolate, and tomorrow (if the weather doesn't suck) after I do my homework I'm going to go down to the first farmer's market of the season.